This is a painful blog for me to write. I ‘m grieving. I’m grieving the loss of family relationships. I’m grieving the loss of former friends. I’m grieving the loss of loved ones. I’m grieving for my friends who have lost children, parents, relatives & loved ones. I am also grieving the loss of childhood idols (Yes I am a child of the 80s & was in high school when Beverly Hills 90210 debuted. Yes we were excited when practice ended so we could get home to watch the show let alone Luke Perry).
Yes I talk about self care. Yes I talk about the importance of remembering what our flight attendants tell us...put the oxygen mask on yourself 1st so you can attend to others. I admit I have not been doing that very well lately. I have made some attempts to reach out but haven’t been really clear asking for the support I’ve needed. I have broken my goal off taking care of myself first. I was on a roll. I was walking every day, eating well, & sleeping well. However, the holidays threw me for an emotional loop. I wasn’t prepared for how hard the holidays were for me personally. I know the holidays are challenging, but I was not expecting my emotional reaction. Of course the weather, the floods, fires & other natural disasters don’t help. I am human & have been triggered.
One thing I have recognized is the importance of taking time off, space, prioritizing yourself. I am working on it. My husband & I went out of town for our anniversary. We didn’t do that when we got married. It was back to parenting & work. Our weekend away was so relaxing & amazing. It was during our weekend getaway that I realized I need to take a Saturday off a month so I can relax, spend time with loved ones & have 2 days off in a row.
I’m comfortable talking about grief especially with my clients. Apparently, I haven’t been talking about my own grief. I am sad. I am angry. Sometimes I am depressed. I am grieving. I know time helps. But right now I am grieving. I wanted to share so others know that there is no right or wrong way to grieve. The key acknowledge your feelings, experience them, talk about it.
I figured over the next few blogs, I’ll talk more about grief & will share articles I find helpful. Here is an article from the American Psychological Association that I found helpful!